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Whenever I find myself wandering, and sometimes it’s usually away from God. I feel as if he has this hold on me, like a rope around my heart, pulling me back and asking “Where are you going?”. I’m not quite sure how to describe it without sounding…weird I guess. It’s like having a toddler, when you go somewhere that is over packed with people you want to make sure that your child is insight. You want to make sure that you can see them, and see where it is they’re going. You don’t want to lose the, or want anything bad happening to them. So you either put them in a stroller, strap them in, or get them a backpack with one of those leash things (which most parents aren’t a fan of, but if you’re over protective then the whole back pack thing may just be the thing).

It’s like God has a leash on us, and when we begin to stray he sees just how far we’ll go before pulling us back to Him.  At some point we even begin to realize how much we really need Him, and that we can’t make it through this thing called “life” without His guidance. Romans 8:39 speaks to me, this is what it says…

Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

There is nothing that could separate us from God, and I mean NOTHING. Just when we think we’ve lost our way, or that we no longer feel worthy, God is standing right there. Waiting for you. People come in go out of our lives, some leave scars, and some just have to go for whatever reason. When everything seems to be falling apart, and no one understands, we will always have this hope. The hope that someone will always be there no matter what may come, no matter what we do, and no matter how we’ve been living. God has you. Sometimes we need to go through stuff in order to be brought back down to our knees, and admit that we are nothing without Jesus.

We all have choices to make, and sometimes we aren’t always sure that we are making the right choices. Whatever we do will lead us down different paths, but that’s where we gain experience as an individual. It’s how we grow spiritually, mentally, and physically. This is why I believe God allows us to wander, but not so far out, because there are some paths that can lead to destruction or even ruin. Wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, know that Jesus is waiting for you. He’s waiting for you to talk to Him, and He yearns to hear how you’re doing and where you’ve been. Even though He is with us 24/7, He want’s nothing more than to hear it come from you personally. There’s power when we admit to certain things in our lives that we are not proud of, thing’s that have caught us off guard. Jesus holds us until we learn to relax, to be calm, and to know that everything is going to be alright. We just have to rest in Him, and trust that He is leading us back to the heart of Worship.

Like they say…

Not All Who Wander Are Lost.

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Rising From The Rubble

There are no more excuses, no more apologies, and no more promises.

I drifted way, and during this whole time I truly believed that what I thought was right was wrong. I had this strong belief that I was doing everything that I was supposed to be doing, that God was leading me in the right direction. It was as if I was finally finding myself, my true self.

That wasn’t the case.

I had drifted so far from God that I was pushing others out of my life. My church attendance was significantly low, my prayer life was no longer a prayer life, and reading the word…I just stopped. At this point, I became numb. Church on Sunday’s became just church to me, I no longer had the desire to go to church. I began to question God, I was frustrated with who I was becoming as a person. I didn’t like myself, I didn’t like the fact that I was pushing everyone that I loved away and out of my life. It’s as if I settled into this mini depression, and I hadn’t even realized it.

It never really occurred to me just how easily and how quickly one can drift away from God. No wonder why so many of our young people are walking away from the church, there’s just too much going on that it’s become a war zone for our young people. How do we fix this? How do bring the one’s who have left back to church? Times are changing, and I feel like our generation today is looking for acceptance. They’re looking for some type of reassurance that they are worthy, and that they do matter regardless of their past mistakes. People within the church should not be pointing fingers, gossiping, or telling someone that they’re living a sinful life. Those who point a finger at you should examine themselves first, and realize that they themselves are not all that perfect.

For those who have ever been put down, beaten down, talked down on, or even looked down on. You’re worth so much more than that. Find the strength to get up, rise up, and have faith that God will work everything out for the better. There’s no need for you to measure up to someone else’s standards, or even please them just so they like you a little bit more. Whatever you do, do unto God. So if it’s been a while since you’ve prayed, or even worshipped Him. Give Him some time today, let Him know what exactly is going on within you. Be silent, be fervent, but also be patient. You may not understand now, but He will show you down the road as to why you went through that specific trial.

As for myself I know I am still battling with somethings, and I know it’ll take time to be where I need to be.

In conclusion, I want to inform you of something. Something very very important, and this is…The devil is a liar, no more paying attention to him.

God Bless

Confessions of a Recovering Perfectionist

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Psalms 18:32 says…

It is God who arms me with strength, and makes my way perfect.

This week’s devotional talked about perfectionism. So before I began I looked up the definition of perfectionism, and this is what I found.

Refusal to accept any standard short of perfection.

As I was finishing up this week’s devotional, I began to think and wonder of what God must think when He looks down at me. This is what I imagine Him saying…”What in the world is she doing?”. Seriously though, I’m sure He asks Himself this question more than once a week. When it comes to making mistakes, especially if I’m the one making the mistakes. I tend to be quite hard on myself, because in my head if I don’t get something right the first time then that’s it. I’ve failed. It literally rattles my brain, and so my failure quickly turns into my frustration.

All in all I am not the type of person who copes well with failure, or accepting the fact that I made a mistake in the process of whatever it is I was doing. There are some nights where I go back to those moments and I beat myself up over them, which factors in me not having a good night’s sleep. We all strive for perfection, and sometimes we make ourselves believe that we are capable of taking on more than we already can. We cannot perfect ourselves on our own, nor can we force such a thing to happen.

God sees our faults and failures as an open window for Himself. He sees it in a way for Him to display His goodness, and His glory…HE perfects us. I think back to Mary and Martha in the bible, and how Jesus was on His way to visit their home. While Mary was calm and relaxed, Martha was in more of a panic mode. I feel as if Martha felt obliged to make the house look neat, and in order for Jesus’ appearance. As the story goes when Jesus finally makes his arrival, Martha at this point is already upset because Mary hadn’t lifted a finger to help Martha out. Jesus already knew the state Martha was in, and informed her that not everything needs to be done…or perfect in other words. Jesus also stated that the way Mary chose to act was right. If you think about this a little bit further, even Jesus’ disciples were not all that perfect. As a matter of fact most of His disciples were known for their humility.

As many faults as we have, and as much as we mess up in this life…nothing can change the way God views us. He sees us worthy, and embraces us when we’ve hit the lowest points in our life. He never turns away, His arms will be forever open for those who are willing and ready to come to Him.

So with all of this being said, you must know that it’s okay to make mistakes and that you don’t always have to have it together. He sess your flaws as a canvas to paint on, so allow Him to do just that and more.

Perfectionism is not the enemy, we just make it seem that way.

The Nature of Love

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Matthew 6:25 says…

Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?

This verse explains the importance of life, and how we shouldn’t sweat the small things. He has crafted our lives in such a way that we ourselves don’t understand, but that’s the beauty of it. He created us in the most perfect way that even nature cannot measure up to us.

Matthew chapter #6:25-34 talks about how we shouldn’t worry about the clothes we wear, and how that even King Solomon wasn’t even dressed in jewels.

This weeks devotional really expressed on nature, and how God’s love ties in with it. For this whole past week I’d get up in the mornings and the sunrise was always breathtaking, and each one was different. The colors, the look, the shapes, it was just absolutely beautiful to witness such glory. Then it hit me….God may have created the birds, the moon, the grass, the animals, and even the sunrises/sunsets…but He sees us even more beautiful than all of this. He took the TIME and LOVE into creating us, and even those who are insecure about their imperfections…well God made you that way, because to Him you were just perfect.

Every little detail you notice about yourself is exactly what He had in mind. Those freckles that you despise, those dimples that are just a little too big, and even those beauty marks that others think don’t look beautiful at all. We shouldn’t feel the need to cover up, or even measure up to those who look “perfect”. The way social media praises these models for their looks, their skinniness, and so on. Yes they’re perfect the way they are, but the editing that goes into making them look even better is a bit ridiculous.

God didn’t create us to  measure up to be the most beautiful, but to the best that we can be. He didn’t design us to carry the weight of the world on our shoulders, no not at all. He designed us to become victorious, and not to worry about life in itself. He’s crafted you into something so much better, and that is to go out and reach others….to be able to relate to those who are hurting, who are struggling, and who are ready to throw in the towel.

We are His, and He is our King. In His eyes we are a masterpiece, and like I said before even nature itself cannot measure up to us. He sees us more beautiful, more important because we are His children. So I encourage you sometime this week to go outside and spot something that God has created, and tell yourself…”God loves me more than the (blank)”.

Yes, He loves you this much.

I.Love.You

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Week #1 is titled “Three Words You Need To Hear”, and they are “I love You.” While reading I came across a scripture that made me think…it left me feeling conflicted within my spirit…but not necessarily in a bad way. In Isaiah 43:4 says

I paid a huge price for you…That’s how much you mean to me! That’s how much I love you! I’d sell off the whole world to get you back, trade the creation just for you.”

This verse blew my mind, especially the part where He mentions “I’d sell the whole world to get you back!” Such a powerful meaning, and to know that it’s coming from Him makes it even more powerful.

As I was writing down my notes for today’s blog, I took a moment to ponder on Isaiah 43:4….and then it hit me. Over this past summer I had asked God “If you love me, allow me to see a butterfly.” While vacationing I had completely forgotten this request, until one day. As we were (my family and I) were touring Washington Island, we had stopped at this small mini museum. As I was getting off the trolley, and making my way to the museum, I was soon distracted by a butterfly that had passed by me and landed on a tree stump. I looked, and looked at the butterfly. I smiled instantly as the tears welled up behind my eyes, because I remembered my request that I told God.

He loves me. Despite my slip ups, failures, and I could go on and on here. He still loves me…He still loves you as well. 1st John 4:19 says

We love him, because he first loved us.

Jesus knows we love Him, but just like us He also likes to be reminded. He never leaves us, but there are times where we leave Him…and I’m sure that hurts Him, but his love endures. Knowing that He loves me has made me question of whether or not I openly receive His love. When he asked Simon the son of John “Do you love me?” was a question that he wanted Simon to be aware of for when he answered which was “Yes Lord.” Then Jesus asked him a third time in which he responded “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”

Not only do we crave such reassurance, but so does God. I understand that God knows our hearts more than we do ourselves, but he wants the words “I Love You” to roll off of our lips…and out of our hearts, and with meaning. He yearns to hear from us from the time we get up, to the time we go to bed. He waits, because His love endures forever and ever.

Have you told you Him that you love Him lately? Did you mean it? Did you really mean it?