There are no more excuses, no more apologies, and no more promises.
I drifted way, and during this whole time I truly believed that what I thought was right was wrong. I had this strong belief that I was doing everything that I was supposed to be doing, that God was leading me in the right direction. It was as if I was finally finding myself, my true self.
That wasn’t the case.
I had drifted so far from God that I was pushing others out of my life. My church attendance was significantly low, my prayer life was no longer a prayer life, and reading the word…I just stopped. At this point, I became numb. Church on Sunday’s became just church to me, I no longer had the desire to go to church. I began to question God, I was frustrated with who I was becoming as a person. I didn’t like myself, I didn’t like the fact that I was pushing everyone that I loved away and out of my life. It’s as if I settled into this mini depression, and I hadn’t even realized it.
It never really occurred to me just how easily and how quickly one can drift away from God. No wonder why so many of our young people are walking away from the church, there’s just too much going on that it’s become a war zone for our young people. How do we fix this? How do bring the one’s who have left back to church? Times are changing, and I feel like our generation today is looking for acceptance. They’re looking for some type of reassurance that they are worthy, and that they do matter regardless of their past mistakes. People within the church should not be pointing fingers, gossiping, or telling someone that they’re living a sinful life. Those who point a finger at you should examine themselves first, and realize that they themselves are not all that perfect.
For those who have ever been put down, beaten down, talked down on, or even looked down on. You’re worth so much more than that. Find the strength to get up, rise up, and have faith that God will work everything out for the better. There’s no need for you to measure up to someone else’s standards, or even please them just so they like you a little bit more. Whatever you do, do unto God. So if it’s been a while since you’ve prayed, or even worshipped Him. Give Him some time today, let Him know what exactly is going on within you. Be silent, be fervent, but also be patient. You may not understand now, but He will show you down the road as to why you went through that specific trial.
As for myself I know I am still battling with somethings, and I know it’ll take time to be where I need to be.
In conclusion, I want to inform you of something. Something very very important, and this is…The devil is a liar, no more paying attention to him.