We’ve all felt exhaustion at some point in our life. That feeling that creeps up on you every now and then, reminding you of all the things that have been heavy on your heart. Not only do you feel like you’ve let God down, but that you’ve let yourself down as well. Finding yourself in all the wrong places, doing all the wrong things…I know exactly how that feels. It becomes exhausting after a while, and our hearts become weary.
In 2nd Corinthians 4:8-9 says…
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;
It’s when you can’t take it anymore, you find yourself with no energy to face the day, and all you can say to yourself is “I’m just so tired of it all”. Tired of struggling, wrestling with ourselves, and even with those around us. We begin to lose a piece of ourselves in the process of trying to fix the situation, trying to fix each and every problem we are faced with. We start to become numb to the world, to those around us, and we continue to go forward with the feeling of dread upon our shoulders.
I was reminded during this past Sunday morning service that God must increase, and that I must decrease. God stands before me and all of my demons that I carry, they shudder at the sound of His name. We’re tired because we let this world get to the best of us, we let whatever we see inside thinking that it’s ok. We allow darkness to settle within, and we become accustomed to the darkness. There are things that we carry that no man should ever have to carry, and there are things within our hearts that we keep hidden from others that weigh us down. It’s the little things that wear us out.
There are going to be days where you just don’t know what to do anymore, you aren’t sure who you should talk to. The feeling of being beyond broken, and never knowing what is going to happen next. You don’t have to feel like this, you don’t need to feel any of this.
There is a lyric from a song that always hits home for me, and it’s by Matt Redman (10,000 Reasons).
And on that day
When my strength is failing
The end draws near
And my time has come
Still my soul will
Sing Your praise unending
Ten thousand years
And then forevermore
Wake up. Know that God is with you, even in your time of need. Whatever you’ve been feeling lately, just know that you’re never alone. Even if it feels like you are, God has never forsaken you…and He never will as long as you shall live, but even then He’ll be with you after life comes to an end. As restless as you may seem, you must learn to accept what is. A tired soul is a sign of someone who has been trying to keep it all together for far too long. Live. Breath. Be okay.