1.a painful feeling of humiliation or distress caused by the consciousness of wrong or foolish behavior.
With humility comes shame, which is another aspect we should embrace with our walk with God. Shame is sort of like a covering that no one else can see but yourself, you feel it when your doing something you shouldn’t even be doing in the first place.
Some of us carry something deep within that we aren’t proud of, and everyday we let it eat away at us. We become bound in our addictions, and the secrets we keep from those we love becomes much more greater than what we had anticipated. For example…having an affair with someone may not be a big deal for you in the moment, but after a while you realize that affair you began has gone on for much longer than you anticipated. You are now prone to this affair, and after a while you feel as if there is no way out. It becomes an addiction, an addiction that we ourselves alone can’t break, or runaway from even if we tried. It can be something so little that can spiral into something so big. Shame has no limits, especially in this life we live in right now.
Shame has a way of revealing our true darkest selves. We don’t think that viewing porn, having an affair, keeping secrets, can become an addiction. Especially when we make that promise to ourselves that “this will be the last time I do this”, ends up turning into something bigger. To the point where we can no longer hid our shame, sin, guilt, but to realize that God has been standing there the whole time waiting for us to drop to our knees and ask Him for His help. We come to the point where we don’t know how to get out of the mess we ourselves made. Our days become more dark, as well as ourselves. We shouldn’t have to live parts of our lives in secrecy, but to live in such a way that when people see you they see God. Not necessarily perfect, but that they can come to you when they themselves are lost. Our shame becomes a part of us, but as a reminder as to what can happen when we step foot out into certain areas of life that can destroy us.
We must acknowledge that whatever we’re doing that brings us shame, is wrong. If the very thing you’re hiding from your other significant, friend, family would beyond devastate them…well that’s something to think about. If you don’t want them to know what’s going on, then you need to bring it to God. Regardless if anyone does know, God is the one who will help you fight through this battle. Just not with weapons, but with prayer of course.
2nd Samuel 22:29
-He turns my darkness into light.
God will bring to light what we’ve done. Not to hurt us, but to help us realize what needs to change. Shame has no dominion over you, so whatever you’re going through personally…you will prevail. Whatever you’re feeling, thinking, or even doing. Just know that God will always be there to hold you when you can no longer stand. Jesus doesn’t call you out by your sin, or by whatever you have done in life that has displeased Him. But He calls you by name, because He sees you through eyes of love. There is power in the name of Jesus, don’t ever ever forget that.
I say goodnight with this…
2nd Timothy 1:7
-For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.